I miss how happy he made me. I miss saying “I love you” nonstop. I miss knowing I’m the only one he cares about and him knowing he’s the only one I care about. I miss his little half smile that he does all the time. I miss how his arms wrapped perfectly around me. I miss FaceTiming for hours until we fell asleep. I miss us hanging out every single day. I miss the bracelet he wore. I miss holding his hand. I miss knowing he’ll always be there for me. I miss trusting him. I miss looking at the stars with him. I miss biting him all the time. I miss him kissing my forehead and my chick. I miss how he used to walk me home all the time. I even miss all the little fights we had over stupid things. I miss how when I knew he was mad at me just by looking at his face. I miss him yelling and cursing at me when I did something wrong. I miss him telling me we’ll last forever and how he’ll never stop loving me. I miss how it used to be just me and him. I miss us. I miss him. What I’ll never understand is how. How he can lie to the girl he says he “loves”. How he thought I’d never find out. How he didn’t think how much it’d hurt me when I did find out. How am I supposed to ever trust him again after that? I have absolutely no idea. But I will. Because I can’t live without him. It hasn’t even been a full 24 hours and I’m already ready to take him back. All I know is for each time he treats me badly or makes me crazy and stress out, there will be 10 times where he makes me the happiest girl in the world and truly makes my life amazing. Without him I’m miserable at best. I can’t let him go. I'm sorry.
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